Changes

I have tried many times to write. I don’t know why it’s been so hard lately just to type my little heart out. So many things have changed in my life. I have never been so happy . The time away from this place has been crazy busy. I now have 5 classes left! I am on the downhill slide and so glad to see it. So many people ask why I don’t finish my masters but to be honest, I need a break from school, from everything. Just to relax.. OOO the word relaxxx when I do get that time, it’s the best thing ever. I really enjoy the time I have especially when I am spending it with Todd. Amazing difference when I am with him. I have no cares in the world, which is the best feeling ever.
I am now entering a time of goals I have made and some of those same goals I have accomplished as well. What a great feeling! I am eating healthier and yes reached a goal weight of 40 pounds.. However…. I have lost another pound ( the last time weighed at the gym) so I am going to reach another goal. I am going for another goal of 21 more pounds! Why I chose that? Not sure sounded like a great number ! I have been working out with a personal trainer 3 times a week and trying to work out on my own, though I really like it when Todd and I are working out together. Always happy to be with him working out but of course I always enjoy being with him, period.
I also have a son that is graduating this year! Amazing how the time goes by so fast. He also made Prom King  … He is a great boy. I have two awesome boys. The move Trae and I have made is one of the best things he and I have done. Scottie is staying in Madrid to finish out his high school years . Trae is enjoying taking Japanese, new friends and a new church.
So my life has been really good and even when I mess up I still ask God to help me through what I need to do to make my life go better. I know there are going to be times when I have rough patches but no matter what happens I will always know that God has a plan for me. What is the plan? Not sure but whatever it is, its for the best. I’m still working to walk where I need to walk. I know that when I have that push from God to do the right thing that it’s what I have to do no matter how the situation may look.
Well this is a night I am actually going to bed a little later than normal. WOW I know Mr. Blog.. My time for sleep was only around 2-3 hours a night.. What is happening to you! Well truth is, I need this for me. Extra sleep, eating right, relaxing when I can.. Yes its for me.. Because I have learned to love me for me.. Because I am a beautiful person inside and out. Yes I know Mr. Blog you cant believe it, but hey get used to it.. It’s about time! I’m here to shine.. No more dreary times. If I write when I am up or when I am down, it still does not change the fact that I am who I am.. I have made a lot of changes in my life and let me tell you I love it. Yes at times it’s scarey.. or maybe its not. But I have enjoyed the ride so far and will continue.

Ok Off to bed. Good night Mr. Blog. I will try to write another night.

~~Deanna Jo~~5/10/2010