Awake at 4:00 a.m.

I sometimes wonder why I am woken up in the morning. I certainly don't think it was because I enjoy listening to my neighbor's tv which was going on with a western and the guns going off. And because now my cat is crawling all over me striving for my attention. So today I guess you could say..

I don't know how I can have a good attitude unless I reverse the whole week and start a new. Then maybe, just maybe, I could have said a few things different, or not at all. Not that would have solved everything, and maybe my neighbor (which is fast asleep now with no loud western on) would not have woken me or I would have been in a harder sleep. I could have only hoped. Right now I know I am a bit tired, cranky and don't know what to say, do, be , anything to anyone. That's sad considering the outgoing and kind , person I am. Maybe I will write later. I need some time to think at work. You know instead of work. ba. ha. ha. ha.  Speaking of.. My coffee is ready and I need to get off to work.

** on my way to work, I believe God told me this song was for me. He has really brought Mandisa in my life alot lately. I struggle with my weight and her songs bring me closer to watching what I eat and what path I need. God is good. I am stronger and getting even stronger than before, and before and before. Thank you God for waking me at 4:00 a.m., for the Western with the shooting, for the cat snuggling with me, Mandisa, and making me stronger.. **
Written By ~~Deanna Jo~~ 10/20/11

And I found the Answer. :)

I love it when God answers my questions no matter how they come about..

Written By ~~Deanna Jo~~ 10/19/11

What I have said, What I should have said...

I wonder sometimes if I am in the wrong on things I say. I know that I think wrong and I ask God to forgive me because it has been about 8 years since I have been divorced and still working in the same office as my ex-husband. Yes that can be hard. However when I am talking to one I love I don't mean to say harmful things, I don't mean to say mean things and yet I stop and am told I do. That makes me very sad because I am the first to think of mean or hurtful things to say to anyone.
I saw a quote on a friends Facebook page and boy yes I thank God for everything no matter how hard things are. The last couple days have been like that. Why God gives me reasons He does is so not understandable to me but I am sure sooner or later I will understand why He handed me what He did. So tonight before I go to bed, thank you again God for what I don't understand, and what I do understand. Thank you for all you do in my life that makes it more difficult so I grow stronger to be with You. Help me understand what I need to say that is right and wrong in the words that should sound like Yours and not mine.

Written By ~Deanna Jo~~ 10/18/11

He who guards his mouth and his tongue, Guards his soul from troubles.  Proverbs 21:23 NASB